Thursday, August 13, 2009

The Clock and the Saturated Man


I love my balcony. I would even go on to say that its one of the most principal sources of my ongoing education. By education, I don’t mean Academics, which is the unfortunate stamp forcefully tagged along with it. I have managed the highly over rated ‘A’ word gracefully, or so I believe.

I sit in my balcony because of a few reasons. The ‘four walled’ feel I get from my sitting hall is often quite overpowering; My Balcony gives me a new lease of life, a breath of fresh air quite literally. Secondly, owing to the significantly high temperatures outdoors, Dad has put up some strict rules of which keeping the AC switched on at all times is a absolute must. So, one could say that it’s a desperate act of escaping the terrible chill indoors. Quite ironical though, as sometimes, one could smell the roads, and at times sweat, due to the appalling heat.

Thirdly, it shows me time!

At 6.30, every evening, I see this White Prado stopping at the signal, right across the road. I have never met the guy who drives it, but I know him. He is what I would call the Saturated Man. Now, Saturated Man is rich, because he is driving a Prado!! He works in a big company, holds a dignified post in his office. He goes to office at 7 in d morning, and returns at 6 in d evening. Everyday of his life!

Saturated Man lives in fear; he knows he can never be a secure citizen in this country. He is just one radical move away from being deported from the country that feeds him. He lacks social security, his family life is an arrangement, it lacks the vividness, the romance, the love that has somewhere down the line all been lost during the fight to survive, and he goes back home every evening, not having the slightest clue where his life is headed to.

I have tried placing myself in Saturated Man’s shoes. I see that the pay scale is amazing, the most magnificent malls are five minutes apart, the luxurious hotels are just around the corner, just turn around and I see a fast food joint, the roads are clean, everything is available… and still I am saturated!

I stepped out of the Saturated Man’s shoes and all these things seem bizarre. What if the pay is high, what if the malls are awesome, how often can I have delicacies from the same place, how does it matter if the roads are clean. How much can I enjoy all these things? What am I doing with my life?

Now, the clock work precision with which people work in the UAE is indeed fascinating. A wonderful thought, but come to think of it, the mundaneness is petrifying. There is no interaction, the rooster coop is so big, one loses track. Like my friend said, it’s literally a rat race.

The artificiality that envelops this region makes history highly intangible. I believe, we fall in love with cities because of its history. The VT station in Bombay, Eiffel Tower in Paris, Coliseum of Rome, they are all prime examples of how we connect with the past. The situation here though, is different. History seems to be swept away, without the faintest hesitancy. All I feel is the heat, and not the history. Saturated Man doesn’t care!!

Maybe it’s the case with every soul living in any sophisticated city. Maybe it’s because we believe we are content with what we have. Maybe it’s because we have not had the time to stop, look up and think.

But how could the Saturated Man think, if he thinks, won’t he be left behind in the rat race?
He wouldn’t be on time then. And if he isn’t on time, I would keep searching for him, which would make my hot tea go super cold…because at my place, tea is served, at 6.30!

On time… again!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Rukmini HOuse 2 Planet Cafe...


This was written bout a month bak... dunno y i din post it den.. anyways.. my blog desperately needs a post... so here it is

Mr.Kanumarath,like always gave me a very random call at around 11.30. He said Barca's playin Madrid.A few minutes later, me and kanu took off to his place, and we saw probably one of the most amazing act displayed by any team. Barca thrashed Madrid 6 - 2, it was indeed a feast to the footballing eye.



The abuse i took on myself on farewell night was still bearing its weight on me. Orange juice was indispensable, so we decided to take a halt at planet cafe. As i was riding by the manipal edu building, me heart skipped a bit, i knew that my time has come here, Manipal... The most bizarre student town one could ever fathom.



As i sat at planet cafe, a flurry of memories shot past me. My first visit to Planet cafe was on Kopal's bday, 16 of us had gathered that night for dinner, and that;s wen we figured out the fammous burger haven of manipal.
2 and a half years back.. phew... time flies... doesn it.. from there on.. planet cafe has been a central part of my life in Manipal. In a sense, Planet cafe got me my closest frenz in Manipal. Those long and amazing Chai sessions with one mr.Ramanathan aka smart aussie tamilian who can get away inspite of havin an e mail id like handsomeme@gmail.com), didnt we discuss, debate and deliberate!!! We discussed everythin under the sun, from politcs, religion, ideologies, Article 19, Journalism, Ethics and of course.. MIC and its inhabitants. I kinda got to know Ramu better der, and those sessions changed a lot of cliche's attached in ma head.




Then there was always Azmal, Niranjan and Anadi, who would jus randomly blurt out the magical lines.. Chal be, Chai peeke Aate hai. We created our own imaginary production house there, We dreamt of Success at the Oscars. We discussed the flip side of life too. We discussed chances of Anadi winning the academy awards and the other 3 of us sipping tea at Azmal's chai shop.We discussed Books, our lives.. and of courses our astronomical Ego's.



As i rode back, i couldn't help but see fragments of all those wonderful days i have had here. To the left of China valley, i saw the road leading to end point, where our football team had valiantly tried to keep MIC's honour at stake. We have tried and I am sure next year the boys will win its first match for MIC. EAch time we lost, it hurt even more.. the results have got better every year though.. we have improved, and next year, i am hoping KAnu, Vinee and co shall achieve what a few of us couldn't do.. Win MIC's first match at Inter MAhe!!!



We slowly glided past BQ mess, where i fielded conversations with two of ma favorite people in Manipal.. Shoaib Zaman and Raajita Di. I am officially their kid, and i do feel like a little boy whenever i am around them. They brought a new lease to ma life here. They cared, n i felt their care, n for that i would always be grateful to them.

KMC has invariably affected my time here. It started off with the ill fated trip to Kasargod when all of ma frenz ended up getting hospitalized. from there on there has been a host of visits to KMC, fortunately always as a visitor all the time. Charaka Ward disgusts me!!!!!!



As we rode on, HOt and cool appeared. Hot n cool was magic, so was the hong kong fried rice.The Shambavi Boys(Raj, Me, Venky, Ramu, Norten) religiously ordered food from there, everyday. The scene was routine, a slightly high Raj would call them up.. and order.. BOSSS... ek schechsshisiwishhhhh... hahahahaha..... bossss... ek chicken schchsehehwish fried rice, ek hong kong fired rice.. chilly sauce).



The four of us always heard the same line, still we always laughed. Shambavi days were memorable. It was freedom unparalled... the jokes wer not always hilarious.. but we laughed.. the fights were not always serious.. but we debated as if our lives depended on them.Shambavi had a charm of its own... n it laid the aisle ready for us to have a blast here.




Off late Shambavi has been taken over by some of my illustrious juniors. There is this one paricular apartment in Shambavi that i like, 603, which houses 4 of the craziest,whackiest and insane people i have ever met. Teddy, Misra, Chicken Frend and Pakao SIngh... Their insanity has made me laugh my guts out time and again. And how cud i forget all the lil parties we had der.. the queen of kubait party, the intoxicating TMJ party, pavi's apple cutting bday party...

As i entered Rukmini house, i knew that the show was comin to an end.... My room, often, the silence aided me.. it gave me space, it provided with the little bit of serenity that was quintessential for ma survival in Manipal... So many memories... so many landmarks...



loved the BBQ party also... was easily ma favorite party in MAnipal.... it was one of those few parties wer all of us had a ball... the setting was awesome.. the food was great, thanks to shabavi 603, sonali and ahwetha... actually shwetha, ami, shiva, kim and sachi were instrumental.... pavi and swati also helped... surubhi hookah was magical, shikha's vodka helped.. we spoke sang and had the time of our life... awesomeness it was i must say



Ahh.. shit... thinking about it now.. it feels nostalgic.. has been jus a month.. hahah... good shit!!!

Monday, March 2, 2009

SLumdog Millionaire - A Phenomenon?

It's been a week since the Academy Awards announced its eagerly anticipated results. Slumdog Millionaire, the phenomenon swept away most of the leading awards which included best picture, best director and a host of technical awards. As one of my friends kept updating me about the results, i couldn't help but think that Slumdog got lucky this year.

When compared to previous years, i personally felt the movies that came out this year weren't great. Secondly, there were some glaring misses in this year's academy list. It came as a huge shock to me when Clint Eastwood's Gran Torino, and Nolan's Dark Knight were both not nominated. Both films, i feel were far superior technically as well as aesthetically when compared to The Reader.

And talking bout Slumdog... i couldn’t refrain myself from thinking that Slumdog is just like any other bollywood film.
Technically well crafted, with the right mix of love, hope and emotions, Cheesy lines, average performances, good background scores and amazing cinematography. Is this the formula to win the coveted Academy Awards? If Slumdog could win, so could Dilwale Dulhaniya Le jayenge, Swades or any other Commercial Hindi Film. All these films have the heart at its right place, just like Slumdog.

A lot of people told me it’s because I expected so much out of the film that i found it to be disappointing. I wouldn't agree to that. I had huge expectations out of The Dark Knight too, but it did not disappoint. Slumdog is an amazing commercial film. It made money, It touched ppl's heart, It's MAGIC MASALA at its best! Frankly Speaking, not Oscar material!

I mean, look at the movies which have won the Oscars recently (LOTR, The Departed, No country for Old Men). How can one even compare Slumdog to these films. It kinda gives me the same feeling i had a few years back, when Saif ALi Khan Won the Best Actor Award for HUM TUM at the prestigious National Awards for his so called Nonchalant performance.
Maybe Awards are too over rated.

The very fact that the Oscar results are being celebrated like crazy in India is also kinda weird to be honest. Of course; A R Rahman and Resul Pookutty have made India proud. Critics and film makers in India might rant their guts out because people consider the Oscars as the gold standard. I believe it is the gold standard, its international, and everyone follows it. It's not like the India'n National Awards which are given to movies made 2 years earlier and has terrible publicity. Rahman and Resul are International stars now, and it is thanks to the academy awards.
Coming back to the boisterous celebrations in India, i kinda feel it’s funny. The movie is ultimately a British Production. It's Danny Boyle's baby, and the thought behind the project was British. So why do we have to make such a big deal out of it. What the Wards have done though is given a phantom lift to technicians in India. The technical experts who were never valued till now will be sought after from now on.

If Asutosh Gowariker, or Bhansali made a movie in Hollywood, with Santhosh Sivan handling tha camera, Amitabh Shukla Editing and Rahman giving the Soundtrack won an oscar, then it would make more make sense for all the ovation and celebration. I don't understand why it's been vociferously projected as India's Shining Light when it's heart itself is not Indian. It’s just a fantastic example of an Indo British Collaboration, which is a good thing for the Indian Film Industry.

The big debate which followed after the movie released was how it showed India in Bad Light. I personally feel that the central theme of the movie is hope and not slums. The slums are just a premise from where the protagonist rises. Some people say that the movie showed the Indian Police in Bad light, one must remember that the Departed showed rampant corruption within The FBI!!!!

The fact remains that our directors were not
1) Adventurous
2) Smart Enough

to smartly deal with a topic like that Dharawi. When 30 percent of the living folk in BOmbay live in such conditions, it’s not surprising that a British Director came and shot himself to glory. we should be ashamed that we could not come up with our own project which could have been more sensitive, and sensible.

Slumdog is not a great movie, If Oscars are the Gold standard, then it got lucky. Like my brother said, u never know if its a carefully orchestrated Zeit Geist to depict a rather gloomy and vulnerable image of India. I don't believe in that theory, but you never know, the world is quite a strange place! If Slumdog could bag 8 Oscars... ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Indian Railways - The real India lives there

I was looking forward to a break this weekend. My vacations kinda din go according to plan. The dream FILM never took off. It was very disheartening to see a whole load of planning go down the drain.

I reached Manipal on the 8th of Jan. Ever since, our whole college has been busy with our college fest Article 19. There has been a cascade of good and bad news all along. Things are going ok, and i really hope it churns out the way we have been planning.

In between, ma friends had left for Goa.FINANCIAL CONSTRAINTS, and Worried Parents = No GOA!!

So, when my folks told me that they would be reaching India on the 31st, i was ecstatic. The Break was ON... finally...

I took the train to Kannur at 7.30. I couldn't get a sleeper class ticket. The general compartment was cramped like always. I gingerly steeped in, because i love traveling comfortably. There were no seats available, hence i decided to rely on my powers on observation to entertain myself, and it's only then i realized, how culturally dynamic India really is.

I saw some really colorful people, Some of them were drunk beyond imagination, some were depressed and lonely, some slept on the floor, some of them smoked beedi, while some sang songs.Some read about Obama, some vociferously blasted George Bush. Every now and then, i also came across working professionals, most of them frowning. Traveling everyday can be expensive, and it so avidly showed on their face.

I reached home, and out of the blue sprung a trip to Chennai. Sleep, good food and rest went out of the window. Another 16 hours of trains..the bags were packed.. and exactly 16 hours later, i was at the same station.. OFF to Chennai!

This time, i was allotted a ticket in the AC compartment. I was just reminiscing my journey 2 days back. There was a phantom shift in people. Families, young couples, businessmen, laptops, i pods, trendy phones and a lot of pleasant faces. I assumed they were all very happy. Some of them slept throughout the journey, while others involved themselves in interesting discussions. Once again Obama was the center of discussion, among a group of elderly friends. That's the human thought in a nut shell, we all discuss the same issues, the ambiance may differ, the may people may vary.. but the discussions are mystically inter connected.

We reached Chennai in the evening. We had to meet a few people there, and after that we traveled across the city. We went to the Marina beach, and GOD. its huge! We also visited M.G.R's(a famous Tamil actor) tomb. A beautifully built structure, me and ma dad walked along the pavement, and discussed how stars become demi-gods in Chennai... We saw a few churches, and headed straight back to the railway station.

Our train was scheduled to leave at 11.30a.m. We settled ourselves amidst a confusing set of seat numbers in the train. There was a pretty girl sitting next to us. I kinda figured that she was traveling alone. Oh ya, forgot to mention, i was completing my cycle of compartments with this trip, i was traveling via sleeper class to Kannur.

A few minutes later a drunk old man came and sat next to her, a few minutes later i heard her scream, the poor old man was a little too tempted seeing the pretty girl. He tried grabbing her leg(Testosterone and its effects), ma bro immediately informed the cops. The old man was too drunk to even realize that cops were screaming at him. She said thanks... and a few hours later, we had a engaging conversation. She spoke about her love and admiration for Prophet Mohammed, She told me how she loathed Chethan Bhagats books,Her love for Biographies and books related to reality We spoke about Khaled Husseini, Feminism, Her half German-half Mallu boyfriend who was her ex Boyfriend's best friend,her lovw for runnig log distances and her wish to Swim in Kannur's beaches.

There was also a dental student, traveling wit us in the same coach, who spoke a lot to my family. She spoke about her love for Chethan Bhagat's books, her love for Fiction, her adulation for Sidney Sheldon, and how she planned to join the army once she completed her course.

I reached Kannur at 2 in the morning.Sleep deprived,tired, and irritated, i got off. As the train slowly began to move, i realized, that India. lives in its Trains....

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

"Mumbai Rescued"... A bizzare headline

About 10 days back, i was aimlessly loitering across our college library.Feeling bored and lonely, i needed some respite, i decided to chill in college for a bit. Library always serves me 2 purposes. When i am in one of those serious modes, i would pick something up randomly and read.Whatever little i know about Indian politics are from these endeavours. Otherwise(most of times that is), i would lurk around and find someone to hit a conversation with).

That day the library had very few people. I caught a glance of one of my classmates Sarah.. who was reading the Indian Express.The headline said.. Mumbai Rescued.... the first question that came across my mind was.. FROM WHAT? IS saving Oberoi and Taj the end of the story here?

Yes, all ten terrorists were captured, 9 of them were killed, But does that save Mumbai?

13 days after the vicious terrorist attacks, i logged on to the same news channels which had covered the events. For a minute i really wondered how fucked are we? People were dancing on the streets, celebrating victory! Democracy's victory!!! they said..People spoke about how the spirit of freedom had overcome political agendas. Just one word came across ma mind!! BULLSHIT!

Over the past 4-5 years.. 929 people have died in blasts(Officials figures). There have been 19 reported TERRORIST ATTACKS in India. Mumbai and Delhi have suffered the highest number of casualties. I didn't have the courage to find out the number of people injured during these blasts. Also, the very next day after the prepostorous Attacks in Mumbai,there wer 9 School kids (aged 4-5) who were ran over by a lorry in my hometown.. None of India's so called National news channels even gave a mention about the incident. So what is national news? 9 innocent school children dying a pitiful death... aren't their lives worth a penny?

We blame the politicians for every damn thing... we must realize that they are nothing, but a cross section of US. We forgive easily.. we move on.. Tomorrow Rab ne Bana Di JOdi will release in INDIA... and people will be content with the garbage Aditya Chopra serves us.Our lives will move on..we forget that another 929 lives could also have moved on!


Barkha Dutt went head over heels reporting at the Taj and Oberoi, when people at the VT station were being shot at ..i mean 'SHOT AT' simultaneously. I do not propose to say that the hostages at Taj or Oberoi should not be given importance.. My basic question is Simple.. What is the value of Human Life in this nation? I mean we are not talking about cocunuts here!! N still, we the common man post elections blurt out to the media sayin " The spirit of freedom and democracy has gained victory!!" GIMME A FUCKIN BREAK!

So who is to blame?? The media for being so commercialized? The politicians, for being so oppurtunistic? The terrorists, who are just fucked in the head?? or us.. u me and this stupid society which doesn't think to save their life.. LITERALLY!!!

I recently read AMi's blog... n while reading the blog.. i realized how these attacks have changed lives. she loves her Mumbai... But i can give it in writing, these attacks will be remembered as 26/11 in the days to come... and nothing more than that. Remembrance!!!! Democracy!! Freedom... Geuninely speaking.. i am just a fortunate soul who is extremely lucky to still be alive in this country!!! MUMBAI RESCUED.. makes for a good headline!LK Advani said today.. that India will be harsh against these terror... 929 people have died already... So someone please explain to me "what is being harsh?".


And yeah... in the midst of national tension, we had an Idiotic Father and an PAthetic CM who were engaged in a cat fight.. Why? Because one of India's real heroes died while trying to save the people of the this country. Sandeep Unnkrishnan.. Thank you! We are sorry.. for being so FUCKED in the head!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

about 4 hours ago... me and ma frend were chilling at our favourite hang out... the baby beach.. randomly discussing the various realms of life. Our talks varied in character and topics, ranging from religion, mass communication, dubai, life, society, his social life, his fear of commitment, my need for commitment... its a usual routine we share.. whenver we catch up, we have lots to tell one another. Ma other buddy had jus gone to drop a frend to the bus stop. My frend who was enjoyin the serenity if the rumbling sea had by then called his mom and told her that he would be late... we thot the 3 of us wud have dinner together...

we reached the bus stop, and a random guy who appeard to be frenz with ma frend suddenly turned up and said.. "Avinash's Dad passed away". we were all set aback for a minute. i was confused!!!

me and avi.. haven spoken to one another for 3 years.. we had a major spat when we were at school. Even though we were thick friends earlier, the issue bloated out of proportions. Both of us didn't take the pain of settling things between us though. We socialized together, yet never looked at one another. We hated each other for bout a year.. things cooled off... n we both were happy to leave each other alone afetr that. A few of my friends took the initiative to bring us together, but it never worked out. My ego always pulled me back.. i believe in certain ideals.. n most of the time i stick to them like glue. and i believe the same applied to him too...

Now i was in a dilemma... on one hand i had ma ego... which is extremely dear to me.. on the other hand i had a lost frend... who had just lost sum1 very precious. as my frend got on2 his bike.. and said hop along, i didnt say a word.. jus got behind the bike.. n we headed straight for the hospital.

we reached the hospital... and then i started havin second thoughts.. confronting sum1 at his worst hour.. when u haven uttered a word to him for years.. and on top pf that all the emotional turbulence i was gong thru.. seeing his relatives... my other frenz... i was not sure how i wud react if i saw him... i didn't know whether to talk to him.. smile at him... i was blank... about 15 mins later he arrived... we shook hands.. n he said thanks... i was silent once again...

the hospital formalites continued.. i was feeling bad.. death often brings me to a deep low.. its not just the fact that its scary... but also the fact that the nearest and dearest ones are the only ppl who can feel he pain.. regardless of how much we try.. we can relate only to a certain extent.. while he was not there.. i had jovial conversations with other frenz.... there is an openess about death.. yet.. for the dear ones... suddenly everythin seems clogged and claustophobic...

i was alspo disgusted by the hospital;s icu.. maybe sum otr tym i wil write bout it... coz our health care sector sucks...

ma brother by then had booked ma tickets for 2 a.m.. it was already 10.30.. i had to leave.. n i thot.. i had to say bye to avi.. i went upstairs.. saw him there... it took a lot in me to go and call out his name... i said.. hey avi.. sorry.. my condolances.. he said... thanks man.. u bein here meant a lot to me... he embraced each other.. n he said thanks again...

he smiled.. so did i... n the avalnche of hatred we had for one anoher jus fizzled off in a matter of seconds... i reached home.. n until this point when i am typin down these thinsg.. i din realize what just transpired... but i feel happy.... i left my ego aside... and i feel good about it

its sad dat it took me this very day... to take such a step... on the other hand.. he genuinely smiled wen he saw me der... it was jus one of those weirdly special moments... wer at times i just fail to understand myself.. it was a day of such irony... of al the days in the world.. we had to patch up 2de... maybe wen emotions run so high... we tend to forget and forgive.. after all i wud have jus hated myself if i din go der.. i dunno how much it meant to him.. but i am sure.. i feel good about it...

Now wen i look bak at this event.. n relate it to the conversation i had wit ma frend.. sumwer down the line it connects... sumtimes.. things are hard.. but if ones action can make the other person smile... everythin changes...but do we really want that change.. aren't we al happy with proving points to one another.. its become so easy for ppl to hate one another.. n for me hate is 2 strong a word... but dats wats happenin... sumwer down the line.. people have stopped connecting with one another.. somewer down the line we have all become very plastic....

May god bless his soul.. n may god give avi the strength to go thru this painful moment!!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008



this is ma first movie... hopefully will come up with a lot more.... i worked as d cinematographer in this movie... bouquets and brick bats are welcome..... please comment.. thank u